2008... I was at the darkest period of my life. I liked death, bought tons of black shirts, liked dark colors, wrote a la Poppy Z. Brite. I felt like life had been so cruel to me. It was as cold as winter.
2009... The year when the spring season lasted for a year. Flowers bloomed, butterflies swarmed, sun shone on "us." There were dark clouds but at the end of the day, the sun set was the most beautiful picture that we belong in.
This year, as everyone knows, started with pitfalls. There were a lot of challenges; tears, heartbreaks, rage, deaths. But I stood up and emerged from the rubble. It feels like the combination of the past two years; a little negative but filled with positivity. Summer has set in. I don't believe in love anymore (at least, love about me.) I am not expecting for it because of the chaos that I witnessed not just in my case but in many. Whatever goes now, it goes, love or hell. But I don't want to hope for nothing.
The best thing I can find in myself right now is positivity. It is something I have never had in life. I look at the world as garbage that I am recycling. Life is too short to complain, rant, and mourn. We are not just an audience in the show of our life; we are the directors. We call the shots.
I hold this positivity like medal on my chest. What's more important than love is Happiness. So while there are people who keep throwing me back to the grave, my spirit is here in the beach, in a clean ocean, enjoying the sun shine and the company.
Let's hold on to life full of positivity and Happiness. We'll never know what we missed until we grow old.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Satisfaction Guaranteed
Taedium vitae.
I'm not an expert with words but I know a lot of them. But this one was not part of my vocabulary yet until I read it from my friend Gabby's status at Facebook. Then, I realized that this had something to do with the feeling that life is boring and wearisome. My friend Gabby said she felt that happiness tend to be temporary. All the good times that we have when we go out and get merry did not convince her enough that life is fun. She wanted something that lasts forever.
When I went out with my superfriend, she also shared the same thought to me. Actually, she had told me and our friend Master Baker about it a few months before. Superfriend also wanted more. She even quoted that line in the song "More to Life" by Stacie Orrico saying, "There's got to be more to life than chasing out every temporary high."
I pondered aout this for days and quickly figured that the only thing that could satisfy one is to become rich. Let's admit it, with money, we can almost do everything. We want to go out there, get high, and have a blast, but we cannot do those things unless we have enough ka-ching in our pockets. With money, it is possible that we can make happiness stable in our lives.
Imagine the beautiful house you can have like those in MTV Teen Cribs, the parties you can pull off like those in MTV Sweet Sixteen (MTV got a thing for greed, I guess,) the places you can go to like those in Travel Channels, or the clothes you can wear like those in Sex and The City. They can satisfy one. You can never be insecure anymore about what is going to happen next. With wealth, you got a firm hold with your future. And come on, let's face it: Money in our pockets is happiness. Yeah, spare me those "There-are-things-that-money-can-buy" monologues but, there are GREAT GREAT things ALSO that money can do FOR US.
But boredom does not end with becoming just another Bill Gates. I always say that boredom does not depend on what situations give to someone; rather it is what that someone does that matter. We cannot be bored if we do somehting with our lives. When I am bored, I go out and find something interesting (When I say "something interesting" here, I mean, at least, for me.) Life is not all about fireworks and confetti; There are really times that we need to face the other side of the coin. Over and over one shall find himself or herself just having another dull moment.
It's part of life.
I am not writing for those two friends that I mentioned (disclaimer mode.) This is just a product of my mind's wanders and wonders. I don't mean that they want to become rich but I somehow suggest that it is a solution (Note: indefinite article.) I guess what I'm trying to point out here is we should just go out there and do our thing. Let's find new things and discover more without stopping 'cause life is damn short.
Let's just do whatever we can to make ourselves satisfied, even with simpler things.
I'm not an expert with words but I know a lot of them. But this one was not part of my vocabulary yet until I read it from my friend Gabby's status at Facebook. Then, I realized that this had something to do with the feeling that life is boring and wearisome. My friend Gabby said she felt that happiness tend to be temporary. All the good times that we have when we go out and get merry did not convince her enough that life is fun. She wanted something that lasts forever.
When I went out with my superfriend, she also shared the same thought to me. Actually, she had told me and our friend Master Baker about it a few months before. Superfriend also wanted more. She even quoted that line in the song "More to Life" by Stacie Orrico saying, "There's got to be more to life than chasing out every temporary high."
I pondered aout this for days and quickly figured that the only thing that could satisfy one is to become rich. Let's admit it, with money, we can almost do everything. We want to go out there, get high, and have a blast, but we cannot do those things unless we have enough ka-ching in our pockets. With money, it is possible that we can make happiness stable in our lives.
Imagine the beautiful house you can have like those in MTV Teen Cribs, the parties you can pull off like those in MTV Sweet Sixteen (MTV got a thing for greed, I guess,) the places you can go to like those in Travel Channels, or the clothes you can wear like those in Sex and The City. They can satisfy one. You can never be insecure anymore about what is going to happen next. With wealth, you got a firm hold with your future. And come on, let's face it: Money in our pockets is happiness. Yeah, spare me those "There-are-things-that-money-can-buy" monologues but, there are GREAT GREAT things ALSO that money can do FOR US.
But boredom does not end with becoming just another Bill Gates. I always say that boredom does not depend on what situations give to someone; rather it is what that someone does that matter. We cannot be bored if we do somehting with our lives. When I am bored, I go out and find something interesting (When I say "something interesting" here, I mean, at least, for me.) Life is not all about fireworks and confetti; There are really times that we need to face the other side of the coin. Over and over one shall find himself or herself just having another dull moment.
It's part of life.
I am not writing for those two friends that I mentioned (disclaimer mode.) This is just a product of my mind's wanders and wonders. I don't mean that they want to become rich but I somehow suggest that it is a solution (Note: indefinite article.) I guess what I'm trying to point out here is we should just go out there and do our thing. Let's find new things and discover more without stopping 'cause life is damn short.
Let's just do whatever we can to make ourselves satisfied, even with simpler things.
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